On my Way to Being a Mum

Right now I’m here reminiscing on my childhood
Imagining the thing I thought of my mum 
The great things and then the not so kind things as well
How at times I thought she was a good mum 
And how at other times,
I had thought to myself she was the last person I wanted to see or hear from

In the course of my reminiscing, I have also realised that as human beings,
It’s very easy to only remember the bad times
While we sweep all the uneventful good times under a carpet

It is now that I realize my mum was not on ordinary mum
And she was never a bad mum either
Listening to childhood tales of other people have opened my eyes
And I realized great mums like her are not all over the place

She loved me so much that today, i talk to her freely about anything
And my life is straightened today because she balanced her love with discipline
She always made herself visible at all important events
So everyone knew...oh that’s her mum o’er there

Now, I’m about to begin my own sojourn as a mum
I don’t know what to expect nor do I have inkling on the process
I don’t know if I can be half as good as my mum
I don’t know if my child would turn out to be an attentive or confronting person
I have so many unresolved heart ponderings
And loads more questions

However, I have set within me to lay it to rest
Cos I have at my side the One who has displayed the best a mother can be
And has promised the love of a mother beyond what a mother can do
Though he be addressed ‘He’, I have chosen
To learn, observe and acquire wisdom at His feet
That I may walk in His motherly way
And ultimately be the best mum ever to the peculiar child He is giving to me

*I wrote this poem while I was pregnant on one of those third trimester nights when I could not sleep.